Craziness...

February is here.. and has started with a bang...busy, busy, busy...
As the days go by, I see myself becoming more of my mother- my OCD has started to kick in, I need my routine.. I have to plan things out in advance..it's pure craziness these days..
As a co-captain for a Relay For Life team, I have to start our fundraising.. we have goals to reach- parties to have, things to sell, friends to make-- all with a common theme.. FIGHT THE FIGHT.. finding a cure for cancer..I am pondering the idea of doing the Susan G. Komen 3 day walk, I want to be involved in making a difference the best I know how..

The last few days my mind has been boggled, so much going on, so much I want to do and all I keep thinking is SACRIFICE.. make the SACRIFICE now and the rewards will be there later..

Andon is about to turn 5 in 3 weeks.. birthday party to plan, invites to send, cake to order...
Torin is into EVERYTHING..somedays I miss the baby days of sitting in one place and knowing he's safe..and honestly somedays I want nothing more than a night to myself to sleep...

I sometimes find myself trying to put the pieces of the puzzle together and trying to figure it all out.. at times I don't know if I should laugh or cry..but I know that I have the right attitude to face any obstacle.. Perserverance and Determination will get me far..

Then there are the wants.. I want alot of things for myself and my children..and I must realize it's going to take time to get them.. but human nature always wants the instant gratification..
On a good note.. the true training for the half-marathon is about to kick in.. part of me is scared and nervous, I question can I really run 13 miles? Am I setting myself up for failure?

I have started looking ahead to the summer..there will be many changes up and coming...but one things is for sure vacation-vacation-vacation ! Not sure where.. but I know there will be 2.. one with the boys and one with momma relaxing in the sun..and I can't wait..

These days I am thankful to be surrounded by great friends & family...

Life holds no promises to what will come our way. It makes no guarantee as to what we will have. It gives us time to make choices and take chances"